Wow I didn’t think this would be hard to talk about, but I guess it is.
You are probably here because you have or have had chronic fatigue too.
It is such a horrible, debilitating thing, but because outwardly you look just fine, people expect you to function the same way they do, and you just can’t.
My life was normal. I was healthy. I had my daughter and life was fine, then we moved and things started to be different. I still had some energy. I thought it was just regular exhaustion, but one day months into this weird exhaustion I realized something was really really wrong, and this was not normal.
We were like any young couple just starting out and didn’t have a lot. We ended up with a little free tv and hooked up our dvd player so my 2 year old could watch movies, but there was no remote or anything, and I didn’t want any movies to get scratched or ruined, so the rule was mommy only pushed the buttons and switched the movies.
That day she asked me to push play on the movie, because all the previews etc. were done playing.
I had laid on the couch and when she asked me to do that I just couldn’t. I had to literally roll off the couch and crawl to the little tv set to push that little button. Then I collapsed on the floor right there and stayed there because I knew I couldn’t do that again and I didn’t have the energy to play with her either.
I was horrified! What was wrong with me? I would have sobbed, but I didn’t have the energy for that either. I had to figure out what was wrong with me, and so started my journey.
I did research and stumbled onto wholistic dentistry. I got my mercury amalgam fillings removed, because I didn’t want to be poisoned by them and realized how dangerous they are (If you don’t know you can research it. Despite them being claimed as inert video shows that when you rub the fillings that mercury vapor comes off the filling, and that mercury vapor can cross the blood brain barrier and poison you.).
I kept having trouble. I tried cutting out wheat, dairy and other foods to see if it was an allergy. That didn’t work (more on that in a bit.).
I was depressed that I couldn’t be as good of a mother as I wanted to be. I had planned my whole life to be the best parent I could be and now…
We couldn’t really go anywhere because I had no energy, so I tried to be there for her at home doing fun projects that took as little energy from me as possible.
And it depended on the day.
I only ever had enough energy for 1 thing in my day. I could either do dishes or play with my daughter. Half the time she cooked for herself at 4 years old, because I couldn’t manage that. I taught her how to stab a potato and put it in the toaster oven and set the timer.
She was so proud of herself for being able to cook like a big person. All I could do was cry inside, because I knew it wasn’t cool actually. It was a lack of energy.
By now it had been a few years of this.
I felt so horrible all the time I worried I might die unexpectedly. I mean who knew? It wasn’t a pleasant thought, but I wanted to make sure my kid wasn’t left in the lurch financially if I died, so I applied for life insurance.
The guy came to take a blood sample and do a questionair. He asked if I had any past medical conditions. I stupidly mentioned feeling like I had chronic fatigue.
He got a funny look on his face and said they couldn’t cover me.
I asked why, and he told me.
Because over 60% of people with chronic fatigue commit suicide. The insurance company refused to take the risk.
That was when I realized that my wanting to join the military lately (at that time) had actually been a death wish in disguise.
Maybe I could go off die and at least something would have come of it. In hindsite I realized I would have never been able to complete basic training. I had no energy for running, doing push ups, or ruck sack hikes, etc. I would never have survived basic training alone!
More time went by. I knew I had to stay alive to be there for my daughter. I couldn’t even die and know she would be financially ok. I HAD to figure out how to fix this.
We got kicked out of play groups that my daughter was in because we didn’t RSVP in time for the group owner’s liking…
but I couldn’t. I literally never knew from one day to the next how much energy I would have. Sometimes I would know the night before or even not till the morning of an event. When it was a free, public event and the group owner got mad I didn’t rsvp that was the last straw for me.
They didn’t want to work with me and my kid lost out. Fortunately there were some other play groups that were more understanding and welcoming, but they didn’t do as many outings or as much fun stuff.
I was trying to eat really healthy and clean, eating organic to rule out preservatives and pesticides causing the problem. I added super foods and anything I could get my hands on that I thought would help. One day I was in the bathroom and looked down and the kale in the toilet bowl had visible TOOTH marks in it!
I was horrified. I knew enough about digestion to realize that my body had literally not broken it down any more that what I had chewed at the beginning. That meant my body was not digesting almost at all. No wonder I felt like I was starving all the time!
I ate constantly because my body had gone into full starvation mode and was desperately trying to get any caloric energy it could.
The irony is that I got fat, but was still starving to death –literally.
One day I was online and saw an advert for chronic fatigue. It was a doctor specializing in it. He wasn’t covered by my insurance, but I was desperate So I scheduled an appointment.
We talked and told him what was going on and especially mentioned my digestion and the food coming out with teeth marks.
He said,”Oh, ya that is malabsorption. Your body is not digesting. You probably have one or more viruses that are causing this also.”
I asked how he treated it. He used a solution of nutrients delivered right into the blood stream with an IV 3 x a week, and whatever treatments he had for whichever viruses I tested positive for. It was going to cost $500/mo.
The insurance wouldn’t cover it I could not afford it, so I went home and got liquid vitamins so my body could absorb something and get some nutrients.
I went to my regular doctor and told him the same things I told the specialist and he told me to see the gynocologist!!!! I told him I had seen another doctor who said I had malabsorption, and he said, ” Yes, that’s what that is.”
WTH!!! He knew I had a problem and didn’t tell me?! Well, I fired that doctor and looked for a better one. I had to fire 2 more doctors before I found a decent one, but that didn’t help the chronic fatigue.
We moved again. Years passed. I was getting these horrible lymph pockets that were fat looking, lumpy and I knew that my lymph needed to move and clear for me to be healthy.
I finally found someone who did lymph drainage and got sessions done.
She told me to stay off all the main allergens — wheat, dairy, etc., but I had already done that, and I was going to eat what I wanted!
But one week I actually didn’t eat wheat completely on accident, and at my next session I felt amazing after ward! I had energy! I felt like celebrating!
So we went to a wood fired pizza place and ate yummy food.
I wanted to stop for groceries on the way home after we left the restaurant. 20 minutes after we left the restaurant I was in the store with my grocery cart and I actually crashed into a lady! I has such horrible brain fog that I simply didn’t see her!
I realized then that the wheat had at least some part in what I was suffering through. I stopped eating it and went gluten free, but it wasn’t the gluten.
Even though I had tried to cut it out before, I had not been able to tell the difference because my body couldn’t move the inflamation and effects out fast enough for me to have noticed the difference, but with the lymph drainage therapy it moved out fast enough that I could finally tell how badly it really was effecting me.
One day after I had been off wheat for about 6 months or so and I was feeling SO much better, but still not 100%, we splurged, and I got junk food. It was a can of pringles potato chips. Lol I thought they would be safe.
15 minutes after I felt like a zombie!
“What!!!” I thought angrily. “Potato chips shouldn’t have caused this!”
I looked more closely at the label (which I usually always did now.). Wheat starch! “Well,” I thought. “Now I know it’s not gluten that’s the problem, but the wheat itself.”
It always took 2 whole days for even just a bite of a cookie to clear out. Anytime I ate wheat it always took me out for 2 whole days. I started avoiding wheat like it was the plague.
Things were much better after that, but I still never had as much energy as normal, healthy people did. I could do about 3 things in a day at that point and it felt great! But there was still a long way to go.
Life just doesn’t work right when you have no energy.
- You can’t work at a job if you have no energy.
- You can’t be a good parent if you have no energy –emotionally (you’re always overwhelmed and at your breaking point) or physically.
- You can’t have fun if you have no energy.
- You can’t take care of yourself if you have no energy and it becomes a downward spiral.
- You can’t even get basics for life done — like dishes or basic cleaning.
And, yet, because you look “normal” people expect you to be able to do as much as they do. It is truly depressing and overwhelming.
I have no idea what is causing your chronic fatigue, but I hope my journey so far has given you some helpful points to start with your own health.
I have saved the best for last though, so there is more hope even than that!
I was looking for ways to help bring in income maybe, but knew I couldn’t do a regular job. I had to have the flexibility to work when I actually had the energy to do so. My friend was part of an multi-level marketing company, and I wasn’t really interested ( I had been burned before in a different mlm), but he gave me some samples of the supplements they sold.
I told him I would try them because, well, why not? They were free, and I would be helping out a friend who was trying to build his business. If I liked them I could refer other people to him.
It turned out that those supplements were a seriously important thing in my life. I took them for the few days and noticed I felt better, so I bought a pack called the triangle of health pack.
Within a week my energy was up the highest it had ever been since I first started having problems!!! I felt almost completely normal!
I felt invigorated!!! I felt energized. I could go out all day running errands and it didn’t put me out of commission for weeks or a month!!! OMG!!! After 10 years it was like a miracle!
I sobbed and sobbed in relief!
FINALLY!!!
finally.
Finally I didn’t feel hopeless any more. Finally I felt like the possibility of me feeling normal again was real.
It was the final piece of the puzzle. I have been doing well ever since I started taking it. It provides something regular vitamins can’t and don’t, and it absolutely changed my life for the better.
Click this link to order it if you want to test it out for yourself. It just might be the exact thing you need. It might be different for you and might not help as much, but I really think it will.
There is new information and research on the ingredients in the pack and they are super awesome and even anti-aging as they lengthen your telomeres (I’ll write another article on that soon.)
It is especially great because even with brain fog it is easy to use. They took the guess work out of it all. You take the Morning pack in the morning, the Sunset pills in the evening, and the Nitro whenever you feel you need it.
I started with the Nitro FX because that was the only nitro product available at the time (and I’m pretty sure the first one on the market actually), and it worked wonders for me, but feel free to order with the nitro extremem if you want more ooomph. 🙂
Of course I signed up to sell it just, so I could get the discount and keep getting it cheaper than full price. If you would like to do that also, you can use this link to sign up. If you decide you want to make it a side hustle or full time business of course that is an option too! For now I just keep my sign up active for the discount. I believe it’s like $69 to sign up — yep, $69.95.
If you really can’t afford the Triangle of Health Pack yet and still want more energy…
I found a tea that helped a lot too. I noticed a huge impact on my energy levels when I drank it. It was a blend found on the regular health food store shelves. To find out what it was, sign up here. I’ll give you the exact brand and tea so you can drink it too. But most important and most impactful was the Triangle of Health pack.